This is the first of a series of post under the theme "Confession of a Pastor." Here I will speaking transparently and openly about my struggles. My hope is that I'm not alone. That you can not only relate, but you will find encouragement and strength as well.
I'm reactionary
I find myself not living the faith filled life that I am suppose to be living. I'm living reactionary and reactionary living based out of fear.
Maybe you've been there. All is going well. The sun is shining the birds are chirping and the angels are singing and then all of a sudden out of nowhere a bomb of bad news arrives at our door. And if your like me, one of the first things I start doing is I start praying more. "Oh, God please help...." "I really need you to intervene...." "Give one more...". Reactionary Prayers.
With out even realizing it 90% of your prayers are reactions to the events of your life. And the amount of prayers you pray just for the purpose of enjoying Jesus is reduced to a bare minimum.
My prayer life increase during times of trouble. Prayers of desperation. Reactionary Prayers. Where is faith that? Doesn't Jesus address this in
Luke 12:22-26.
God help me to be so in tune to you that I don't get thrown off kilter in times of trouble!! Amen.